Wednesday, June 6, 2012

On The Outside

Retropolis

We are on the outside while the party is being prepared inside. We are on the outside with our gifts, the ones we had brought for the party. We are on the outside holding the bottle of champagne watching everyone fuss about the decorations. “Yes,” they said, “there is a chance that we may let you come in.” But it won’t be the same now, will it? That bitter taste in the mouth ... Even if we are invited in, it won’t be the same. “Don’t fret about it,” they say.  We nod. “Next year,” they say. We nod and echo “next year.” Or perhaps next year, we’ll be shoved to the “looked ok but we didn't have room for” pile again. And then, will it be the year after that? And the thing is, we have worked so hard this year, tirelessly letting everyone know there would be a party, enthusiastically preparing our own decorations and gifts. Now, we cannot but wonder. Had we kept shut… We shake these thoughts away. Well, the party will take place. We can go in and visit around, of course. We can even talk to the people. We may even still be able to bring our decorations in. But, who likes to be a second choice? Who can be a good sport and press on merrily as if nothing had happened? In reality, we will always be on the outside while the party takes place inside.

2 comments:

  1. The party is here, everytime I turn on the system waiting for you. The party is everytime I hear your voice, your laughter your thoughts. The party is your courage and your endurance. The party is the sweetness of knowing that you are around. They have something cooking in their kitchen, yes, but we are the salt, and they don't know it!! It was their choise to free us out with empty causes, but now we know!! You my dear are not in seconds in my mind, you worked hard for their cause and they were as ungrateful as they could be, but it is not your faut they are only greedy humans faulty of heart. To me you are the winner, the first, the number one. I love you for your passion and your bigness, for your strenght and your wisdom. You are my party!! And for that, I will open that bottle of Dom Perignon we had for them, it is a better cause to open it for you...and....hey....more to us!! Come on let's dance ;-))

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    1. Love you! Thank you for your words.

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