Misali |
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Update (March 31 2014): This sim is now located at Hazardous Inc.
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The piano
player sat at the edge of the cliff. Beside him, the unused telescope monitored
the lost horizon where a wounded lighthouse continued to shine, its static
light pointing vaguely to the sky. Small silver waves sparkled toward the shore
where the remains of an old dinghy rocked back and forth wondering about past
trips and forgotten lovers.
A second
chair kept him company, as if someone else sat there beside him. He still spent
many hours thinking of her and the music played on in his mind while his
fingers drummed away, against his will.
He moved to
this quiet village a year ago. He wanted to leave all the familiar places behind,
the places where he could see her face in every corner. The times they spent
together were filled with adventures, shared futures and eternal smiles. She
was not with him anymore. He didn’t want to listen to the stubborn melodies his
mind hummed and hummed continuously.
The villagers
welcomed him with a vigilant formality. They knew he was a famous piano player
eager to protect his privacy, but he only really wanted to protect a painstakingly
built wall of silence, the silence where her voice could not be heard. Most
days were difficult, nights were worse.
Sometimes,
he dreamt of a black and white room where black chairs scattered about danced
to the silence of a black radio, a nearby coats’ hanger threatening to join in.
Curiously, there was a window above from where a ray of light shone, giving him
some hope. He always felt like climbing on a chair and peaking through the
window, but he never did. He feared a renewed loss in an eternally revisited
dream, strenuously balanced between an endurable vision and an intolerable
nightmare. There was also a tub with warm steamy water, inviting him to jump
in. When he did, he invariably ended back at the village. And the dream was
over.
Those
months went by slowly. He walked around, waving back at the occasional
passer-by and spending many nights at the open-air cinema where black and white
films were shown against the wall of a local house. No one ever joined him. The
villagers had watched those films many times before for sure. Occasionally,
there was a slideshow of pictures taken at the village, the lighthouse, the
lake by the playground, probably the result of some contest long forgotten.
Whoever changed the films and the slideshows was never to be seen. He didn’t
know it, but they did it for him.
Every Saturday,
the village organized a ball. The loud singing and laughter cautioned the piano
player not to leave the warmth of his fireplace and the company of an old mute
radio. He would sit at home hypnotized by the rhythmic dance of the flames,
wishing he had the courage to go outside where the bright white lights hung
from a cord above the dance floor.
The worst
part was the music playing intertwined promises of perpetual love. They
triggered painful memories of her, and when he tried to be rational and think
of the flow of notes as A plus B plus C, his fingers gained a will of their own
hammering away on the arm of the sofa.
At the edge
of the cliff, the sun was setting, the shadows growing into dark duplicates of
the chairs, the telescope and the trees. The clouds were gloomier too, readying
themselves for the night and for that day of pain, the day he had lost her.
The piano
player always delayed going home. He waited till the last minute, the very last
moment when the sun slid away toward the other side of the world to search for more
broken hearts, he thought. Before he finally stumbled through dusk to find the
way back, he always took a last look at the fallen lighthouse hoping that it’d
point him in the right direction somehow.
Misali |
Throughout
the months, he discovered many spots where he sat for hours, the wooden bench
with the lamp next to it, the old bridge, and the broken windmill looking up at
the power lines where imaginary clothes danced in the wind and spread a sweet
scent of freshness. Someone had placed a painting of trees with fluttering
birds next to a lamplight sitting on the floor. Those leafless trees made him
think of the past and also of the future. They planned to have children. They
planned to see the seasons go by. They planned to sit together at the edge of
some cliff and watch the sun disappear with the reassuring belief that
everything would be ok.
He also
spent a great deal of time walking in shallow waters at the bottom of the cliff
where he found an entrance in the rock. A wooden pathway took him to a small
cove where a Buddha whispered silent mantras and the echo of the waterfall behind
it was silenced by its tranquility. That place brought him peace, even the
silence he eagerly searched for. The villagers, on their way to a café nearby,
would look at him with surprise. He sat in front of the statue for a long time
with water up to his chest, his eyes closed.
That’s when the little girl noticed
him for the first time.
Part II, the conclusion.
And then there is the lack, the lack of a piano and his fingers hammering whatever they touch, like a drug addiction. Will/Could he survive without music ?
ReplyDeleteI don't think he would. In the story, I think that that was what saves him, music. Directly and indirectly, as well. :) Thank you for your comment, Qt!
DeleteLizzie this story really immerses me in his loneliness and longing.I love that he finds an entrance and a wooden walkway ( I love finding secret passageways- there is such hidden meaning to finding paths) to a tranquil Buddha, mantras and waterfalls. What can the little girl show him!!
ReplyDeleteThe symbol of the passageway is fascinating. The surface of the water, the mirror, the door, the window, light/darkness at the entrance of a tunnel, all are such an amazing source of inspiration! This passageway was the beginning of his transformation (although I think it started the moment he found himself alone (but surrounded by friends he didn't even know he had) in this village. The "passageway" also plays with age. The fact that the little girl, wise beyond her years, pulls the piano player back to life in a way only young children can do.
DeleteAgreed! It's a journey and a child holds the key to the a new doorway.
DeleteYour comment made me think of the beginning of Alice in Wonderland, that I reading once more. She holds a very small key in her hand and against all odds, she manages to find a way to transform herself so that she can actually use that key. The key is a symbol for transformation and adaptation! But I ramble! :D
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